Torn
At the beginning of December I started running. For the most part I was really enjoying it. I even lost a few pounds. But right now I’m feeling very torn between running and just walking to get a little exercise.
Reason number one. Whenever I ran I would feel so guilty and selfish. Spending all that time and effort when I can’t even get around to cleaning my bath tub more than once a month. Also, the reason I had started running was so that I could go to Utah next year and run a half marathon with my sisters. Just thinking about all the time and money that goes into that trip. It’s also likely that my husband and kids would be stuck at home while I went on a trip just to go run a race.
Reason number two. I mentioned that I lost a few pounds. Well, right after Christmas I had a cough for about two weeks and wasn’t able to go running. In those two weeks I GAINED 10 POUNDS! Now, I can chalk some of that weight up to the food I ate. But I don’t want to start running again if I’m going to gain 10 pounds every time I take some time off from running.
Advice?
First of all it is important to have personal goals and “selfish” moments when you are a mother. If you do not have things like this to plan for and look forward to then what is the point of living. If you are worried about the money then find ways throughout the year to make cuts on other things so you can add to your trip account.
Now for the weight. If you enjoy running then focus more on running goals and the way you feel when you achieve them. If running makes you feel good then focus on that and not on fluctuating weight .
Thanks Stacy! It’s good to hear that it’s okay for me to be “selfish” sometimes.
When I read the words “fluctuating weight” I mentally whacked my forehead, duh, my weight is going to be fluctuating my whole life! So stop stressing about it and enjoy the ride.
Thanks again!
I totally agree with Stacey! She’s must be smart:-) It’s so easy to get lost in mommyhood, find joy IN the journey not WHEN the journey is over.